I am immune to love.

I've been hurt real bad and now I'm immune.
I'm back to my roots.Music.
I know I am a hopeless romantic.
My heart is cold.It's not beating anymore.

Christmas is coming. It won't be a merry christmas.
I've realized that it is time for me to come back to reality and to see things how they really are.
Examples are:
1. The world is a mess. There's nothing I can do about it. The government is corrupt.

2. The priests and nuns who devoted their lives to God are committing sin.

3. Punk is becoming poppy. Damn the posers for this. Punk used to be really underground. I blame avril and her band of posers. A disgrace of the music industry.

4. All men are the same. Liars. There is no truth that there are guys who stand out of the crowd.It's all crap.

5. Bad communication causes family problems. Causing teens to act all stupid and do bad stuff. No family is perfect.

The world is freaking mess. There's nothing I can do but just shut up and go on my way.

What we are going through today is a punishment for what we have failed to do.

I just realize now that it's hard to make/create art when you're miserable. No words and ideas are coming out of my head.

But I still try to do the best I can.

I was one of the top students in my class, but it didn't make a difference on how I feel. It's still the same. I feel that my world's color is in black and white...

It's nice to see other people happy, it's like their in winter wonderland running around in the snow and making snow angels. Their wide smiles and the look in their eyes. I miss feeling those fuzzy moments.

He has a crush on one of my very good friends. I am a bit jealous. He sat on her chair when we had this group meeting. I didn't want to look him on the eye or be around him. But I had too. When will I ever get over him?

This is enough for today. I am too sad to write. Yes, I am fillied with emotions. I don't know know how to express them. I will not shed a tear again. It is enough. I must get over him. It is enough of my suffering.

good night.

-gabes

Maybe you'll soon
Forget about it
Or maybe you'll miss like I do
But one things for sure
I'm all knocked out
I spend too much time thinking of you

And I can't get you out of my dreams
Now I know you're the dangerous kind
And your smile is tatooed on my mind
'Cause I can't get you out of my mind

I don't wanna write
I don't want to call
I wouldn't know what to say
It should be you
That's how I want it to be
Tell me you feel the same way

And I can't get you out of my dreams
Now I know you're the dangerous kind
And your smile is tatooed on my mind
'Cause I can't get you out of my mind

Oh yesterday
I was feeling safe
All I do today is trying to be brave
And no melody can seem to soothe my mind
Now I curse you for being
So sweet and so kind

And I can't get you out of my dreams
Now I know you're the dangerous kind
And your face is tatooed on my mind
'Cause I can't get you of my mind
Yes I know you're tatooed on my mind
On my mind you're tatooed...

My exact feeling right now.
"I am the music while the music plays..."

Its cool. But I think there all part of one class from MC (miriam college) in high school. hehehe... Miriamites love blogs. But miriamites are cool they've got class and they are one of our neighbor schools along katipunan. Yes you guessed it, you have to know what school I am from now, take not I am a girl. I am in high school too.

These past few days i've been doing okay. I have sort of gotten over him.

I haven't posted for awhile. So here I go again...

I wish it was summer already. I miss the waking up at 12nn on weekdays, the no hassle days and the bum around all the time. I miss it. Cheerdance competitions are coming up again. Even in our school that's what everybody's fussing about. I hate the half pf my batchmates specially the "totoys", the still immature and kid like people. They don;t even want to cooperate. Sheeeesh.

When will they ever mature? Sure, they've matured physically but c'mon they still play around. Guys in our class are more mature, there gimik are: going to libis, go and see a movie and a double date or something. They are also the guys that when you need help they're always there for you. They may be a bit "malibog" but they respect girls they don't make fun of you they kid around unlike the immature ones who talk at your back and make fun of you. Annoying.

I know that I'll still be hanging out with the guys in our class until I;m in college I've been hanging out with them since I was in grade school. They maybe the "gago"(naughty) ones but they're fun to be with.

I end my message here, Good bye and good night.

-gabes. Make love..Not war..

Am I back to normal?
Am I done falling over you?
Am I finally overcoming this emotion I poses?
I hope I am.

It's still funny
You never noticed, a good thing
I fell for a guy who never knew I fell for him
Ya, that guy was you if you would like to know..

You've changed...
You weren't the guy I thought you were
You've proven that all men are the same
In a way I despise you.

You're smart, respectful and a gentleman
But you're just like them.
I was wrong. You didn't stand out of the crowd.
I judged you to early.

I fell for you without even you knowing
I didn't want you to know
It's better this way
I've let it go. I'm not hurting so much anymore.

Finally, I am a bit ok.
I am getting over you.
But are you gone?
Are you gone from my heart and will you never come back again?

Only time can tell. For now I am a bit ok.

-gabes sana makalimutan na kita...

The whole day I was sneezing like crazy. I hate it when I have colds. I was also tired very tired. Didn't get much sleep.

Spongecola is releasing their new album today! I'll buy it and watch the "Broken Middle Finger" gig for awhile. I miss watching gigs.
The only problem is I don't have anybody to go with.

This whole cheering stuff is getting complicated. OUr cheerleaders already hired an instructor since they were already having a hard time. By the looks of it, the instructor looks strict and what he wants he gets.

I just hope that they none of them quit because they give up.

These past few days its been cloudy. One of those days that you just wanna sleep all day or day dream because of the weather. I kept on looking at the clouds during class hours and ofcourse I got really sleepy and started not paying attention. This is what I have been doing the past few days.

It's funny how you get to stare at the sky seeing grey and white mix together, it's sad it's like a sign that someone is in agony. We have so many thoughts so many questions that we want to ask but there are also some things that we limit. We don't let it expand we limit it to what we believe and not welcome ideas or theories about it.

God gave us the power to think and to be curious about the things around us yet we limit ourselves to what we know and not expand or widen our knowledge.

Maybe if we could just be more curious, experimentive and optimistic maybe there is an answer to all our questions. Maybe God had left the solving to us, the answer might just be aroung and yet we don't know, we maybe even neglecting it.

There are so many possibilities but I end my message here.

-gabes

MAKE LOVE NOT WAR

well almost..

I am getting better..Back to the usual me which is music, art, and the computer.

BUt it seems something is wrong. Something I've lost, I just don't know what it is. Weird.

We're begining to be close once again but this time not just through texting we get to talk w/ each other in person. He also noticed that when we text we're very open but in person it's as if we don't each other. Funny and weird, right? And I forgot to say this is the guy I fell for but he never knew and he will never know.

I've sort of gotten over although I still think he is cute. I can't forget that when it is the truth. He is cute for me. Most people say that he's boastful, he is. But when we text or talk he's humble. Maybe there are two sides of him..On one side the one he shows in school "the macho boastful guy" and on the otherside "the humble and sweet guy" I'd prefer the humble and sweet guy. Coz he can really be annoying when he does the macho boastful act.

Enough of HIM. I admit I still like him but not like before.

This is song from vanilla sky is stuck on my mind. I think mandy moore revived this song, Can we still be friends by Todd Rungren ofcourse the version of Todd Rungren is better it's funkier.

ok I end my message here.

My band has this audition for this Free show for the MC fair. GOt to get ready for that! I really wanna get that spot so I hope we get it. (sana talaga) haay... Got to go practice now.

-gabes

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! Just got home a few hours ago.. Finally I get to have a new digi cam! YEEEEEEEEEESssS!!! I am back to my photography days... Although I have to experiment with first, I;m not yet used to taking photos with it. But I will soon. And I got the new sims Supahstar..hehehehe My computer geekiness is at its peek again! nyahahaha

I got to get away from the city.............I need to see nature once again...I miss the outdoors...I miss hiking....I miss wall climbing...

Finally I got to work out my muscles. I got to play badminton with my mom and uncle this morning after that I headed to the gym to work out a lil bit. Badminton was fun since I mad my mom pick all the time and I helped my uncle burn all his fats..(he's a bit fat..hehehhe)

I now think that casio exilim is better than the sony cybershot. The photo quality is much much better, the size and weight has a big diff the exilim zoom is smaller and lighter and less bulky, and this guy that we bought it from has both cybershot and the exilim zoom said that he is more satisfied with the outcome of the exilim zoom. So we bought the exilim zoom.

OK, I'm leaving now I'm about to take pictures of my dog, Fudge. I'll try and post his pix tomorrow or sometime this week..

I gots to goes...bye for now still need studying...damn math test..

-gabes. :D "I just don't know what to with myself.."-The White stripes

I know I only have a few who are really my true friends.

True friends say what they want without any hesitations. They just say it, straight to the point.

They aren't scared to say anything negative about you they don't keep it as secrets.Because when you trust that person you'd want them to say it to you than keep it from you. Because you know that when they notice something it'll be for your own good not just to pick on you.

They're very open with each other and they know right away when there's something wrong or bothering them.

Isn't it a pitty if suddenly one of your so called true friends start hiding things from you? A pitty, right? After all of the things you've done for them, after all the talks and laughters, and after all the shoulder to cry on incidents, really a pitty,right?

But I won't let just this small thing ruin our friendship. Sheeshh...It's such a small thing to end a good friendship. I'll just let this pass. I'm very good of just letting go about stuff. It's just a bit annoying that they hide stuff...But oh well the world isn't perfect. Anyways, I got to get some new cheers now...

-gabes

Guys: please pray that my band get's picked for the upcoming mc fair free show.PLLLLLLEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSEEE!!!

me and my band auditioned for the free show a while ago. It was ok we did the songs that we did best which are: Alizere (our original) and looking back on today by the Ataris. At first the girls that were "manning" the audtion didn't think that alizere was our original one girl said, "What's the name of the song anf who sang it?". Gin answered it our song we made it then they were like "WOOOOOOW" they all had the same reaction.I mean all of them! hehehe...It was pretty funny though especially their facial expressions. hehehehe

as of school it was ok. a lot didn't go to school. it was freakin' boring day.lame.got lots of homework.

I really hope we get the free show gig. I miss the gigs...
But I think they're reactions were positive...I mean they're were amazed when we said that alizere was our song..nyaahahahaha....I just hope we really get it...

WWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!!!! ATENEO LOST AGAINST LA SALLE!!!!!! 72-76!!!!!! THE RIVALRY IS BACK AGAIN!!!! i HATE GACO! HE TRIED TO PUNCH TENORIO!!!

hey guys! im back.. it's been a long time.. well anyway, i really really really do hope we get in in the free show! i think we'll get in, in a hopeful way, not boastful.. i think we did our best.. but shit i don't want it pure acoustic! i really wanna have drums in barkada.. and everything else that has drums..

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weird me.. im studying for the exams already.. i feel SOOOOOO not myself.. i usually CRAM. i don't study ahead!!! no! but, now i do. weeeeeird.

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i pity the bowlers.. most of us want to be different from everyone else through our music, hobbies, talents, and fashion.. the bowlers of this world used to be so different.. but now, everyone's got "bowling shoes" and "bowling bags" and maybe even "bowling shirts"! i pity them so much.. and im beginning to pity the rockers too.. rock music has become so common nowadays in hit POP charts.. then everyone else will start to become rockers.. it's not that i aprove selfishness. it's just that i pity them cause the only thing they have is "taken away".. nothing serious.. just a thought!

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ok im bored.. anda: i saw the intermission already.. it's so funny!!!

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uh.. i think ill go now.. uh.. okie bye!

--deyn, kitharista

yeah...The title says it all..

I'm bored....

I started taking photos again. Finally. I miss taking pictures.

hmm....Cheering competion is just a week away...I hope I don't do anything stupid once I play the drums.

It's one lonely Sunday for me again. My mom 's out of town. We were suppose to play badminton today but ofcourse it got cancelled.
I'm used to this already.

Damn..How Pinoys can really be corny! Every Sunday there are these afternoon entertainment shows.They act really corny and wear corny stuff. But ofcourse there are those who can really look good in whatever they wear. There are 2 local tv stations in the Philippines who are neck to neck on being the best, ABS-CBN and GMA. If you're going to ask me who is better I'd say abs-cbn because for some reason there coverage is more clear tha any other station plus they are more successful. They have this channel just for news, ANC and a channel which is cable material, Studio 23 which is I think the only channel which has the coverage of the UAAP and NCAA.

So my vote goes to ABS-CBN. I just hate it because they're becoming cornier with this METEOR GARDEN FEVER. Damn don't people get tired of those Taiwanese guys?? They listen to their songs which they can't understand. I just think that's plain stupid just stupid. sheeeshhh...when will this madness end????

-gabes